A new normal

I quit my job. I no longer see my friends. I am mostly at home now. I do not have the ability to focus long enough to read. I can not walk much and most other physical activity has been been stalled.  I am not sure who I am or what I am doing anymore.  There have been times in the last year that I couldn't even make it through a 22 minute show on Netflix without stopping in the last 8 minutes to take a mental break.

My new normal is .....well....it's just not normal.

Lyme disease is my new norm and I gotta say, I am growing tired of it.  I stopped blogging all together because writing was impossible and there was no way I could read blog posts. Plus, how many posts do you want to read about my pain and suffering??

I have started seeing a new doctor and with it have come some great results.  However, then in true fashion, I push the limits and put myself back on the couch due to over working.  I sit here now needing to get paper work done for our business and attend a rotary meeting at noon, trying to figure out how I am going to do it.  My mobility is limited again due to two swollen knees and a complete loss of energy.

I need to get up, find a dress, curl my hair, and get out the door soon.....I just want to rest. Laying down sounds like the best option of all.  (especially since it is a rainy Monday).

I am only now starting to learn the true effect of my Lyme disease going neurological. To tell you that it isn't scary and overwhelming would be a lie. Anxiety, anger, outbursts, forgetfulness, brain fog, losing my ability to focus, blurred vision/floaters in my eyes..... it has all been scary.

Well, here I go.  Getting up off the couch (with the use of a cane), finding something comfy yet professional looking and going about my day in my 'new normal' mode.